{The Ordinary Moments 16} #7 – A NOT SO ORDINARY WEEK.

I have previously written about the past week and the difficulties in it, but I don’t feel I could really write about anything else this week, as it’s been pretty focused around some awful news we were given about my grandad. Over the last week we’ve felt so many emotions and have gone from a quick hospital stay for him, to being given just weeks left with him. News like this just stops life for a while.

What do you do with news like this? I know life can’t stop, because I have two very young children who don’t understand if mummy is acting a little off, and therefore I just need to carry on as normal, and somedays its easier to do that, but then other days, well, they really are quite daunting. I’m struggling to see my family go through such heartbreak, and I’ve really been trying to see them much more than previously, which is quite awful to say really. I know it shouldn’t take something so awful as this to make you realise you haven’t been around much, but life has very much been quite hectic, and with having younger ones sometimes its not so easy to do that.

So this week has been very out of the ordinary, and so will the coming weeks, sometimes writing it down helps with these heart breaking moments. My main focus at the moment is to be there, and spend whatever time I can with a man who so selflessly loves all of his family so open heartedly. Time is so precious.

 

Chloe x

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LIVING ROOM TOUR

I love living room spaces, it is definitely our most used room, and although with two children around, I do try my best to keep this space as tidy as possible. We have a playroom just off of this room so at times it can get really untidy, but I’m hoping that once we have our extension done I can really concentrate on decorating this room, I really feel at the moment is just become a little dated, and there are lots of wear and tear bits and pieces I really want sorted.

Once we have our new extension this living space will become much more of a neat and tidy room as we are adding another living space which we will use more as an every day living room where the boys can play with their toys and do whatever they wish! I’m so excited to get it done and will be doing before and after posts of all the rooms which we are changing, eeek! New Kitchen!!

I thought I’d do a little tour as at the moment this is really the only room I feel is acceptable to photograph.

 

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Chloe x

 

FINLAY – 2 YEARS 3 MONTHS

Being new to the blogging world, I obviously haven’t kept a little diary of how my little boys are growing, so I thought I would begin now, as a way for me to look back  and see what their little personalities are like at certain ages. They are growing far too quickly and I want to remember so much of their little lives.

My biggest boy. My first baby, the one who I’m learning with every single day about how parenting goes, and what I should and shouldn’t be doing. He is the one teaching me this whole parenting malarkey. I must say he is an angel (most of the time). We have been going through a bit of a tough stage, with tantrums coming from all directions, screaming, the good ol’ toddler selective hearing, and just general toddler behaviour, but I must say that it is quite rare and more often than not he is an absolute angel.

Finlay has always been such a brilliant eater, and I’m really pleased to be able to say that he still is. We luckily haven’t reached the picky eating stage, and I’m hoping we are the lucky few who don’t! My boy will literally eat anything that’s put in front of him, and I have to say that fruit is definitely at the top of his must haves! (Along with kinder eggs) woops! He is feeding himself most of the time, but I have to admitt I’m awful for feeding him when we have spaghetti Bolognese and messy things like that! I think I’ve just gotten myself in a bad habit!

I’ve really noticed Finlays speech is coming on so well, he can say lots of words, and is now putting sentences together, however there are some words where he cant quite get to grips with the sounds of the letters, but things like this never worry me as I know all little ones learn things at their own pace. Finlay hasn’t started nursery yet, but we have FINALLY booked him a place in September. We left it a little too late, and the waiting lists for nurseries in the town I live in is ridiculous. I cant wait for him to start, I think he is so ready, and I think it will build his confidence no end. Finlay is very shy when it comes to meeting new people and tends to hold back a lot, something I think he gets from me! I really think nursery will help this and help him to feel a little more confident in front of others.

Dancing and singing is something Finlay absolutely adores and is definitely taking daddys taste in music! He absolutely loves take that (my husband will kill me for that), but its so sweet! he can actually sing the words, and follow the tune of the music, he’s also really clever at picking up dance routines! Something I think is really quite clever for his age, to be able to copy what the people are doing in the music videos is quite hard, I don’t even think I could do!

I am so so proud of how he is growing and the kind hearted person he is becoming. I cannot believe just how quickly he is growing up. I wish I could just stop time and have him at this age forever. He really is such a sweetie.

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Chloe x

Heartbreaking News.

How do you really ever come to terms with the fact a loved one is dying? This week me and my family were faced with the heart wrenching news that my dear grandad didn’t have much longer left with us. I really don’t think there’s anything in the world that can prepare you for news like that. When you’re told someone you love soon wont be here, you can really feel your heart break. I’ve had my fair share of loss throughout the years, and I can say that it never ever gets easier to hear. If anything I feel it worse each time.

I’m a big worrier, but not about myself. About the people around me, and to see them suffer in such a way really knocks it out of me. I hate to see so many people hurting. Nothing compares to hurt you see for someone who is struggling, frightened, and genuinely lost. Seeing your parents upset and hurting is something that will never be easy to see, you question how strong you can be for them, when all of your life they have been the strong ones, but you have to be, you have to be there for them. I have two very small children who of course don’t understand anything is wrong, and rightly so that they shouldn’t see us upset. However that doesn’t make hiding it any easier.

When you’re given such devastating news you begin to question if you were there enough, or if you did enough for that person. There are so many things you go over in your head and question if you should’ve done differently. So many scenarios that sometimes you wish had gone a different way. This week has taught me that life is far too short to continuously worry about the small things. The small things don’t matter in hindsight.

I will be holding my loved ones a little tighter, for a little longer.

Chloe x

Siblings Project – February

I can’t quite believe my littlest is now over 4 months old! 4 months of watching a beautiful bond form between my two boys. This month I’ve noticed more than anything that Jacob is really beginning to watch Finlay in everything that he does, and I can see him almost willing himself to grow up so he can run around with him. He finds him hilarious and I can really see the love between them growing stronger and stronger.

Finlay cannot get enough of his baby brother, its becoming clearer every day that Jacob is his top priority at times, in the mornings he likes to know where he is. At night times he has to say goodnight to him and give him a kiss over anyone else in the room. He just adores him and it makes my heart burst.

This month I’ve definitely noticed Finlay becoming a little more confused by the fact that his baby brother isn’t able to run around with him or dance, and play with his toys. He is always asking for him to come and play, which is really difficult to explain why he cant. However we do often chase after Fin holding Jacob and this is a game he loves.

I love to watch this bond grow day by day, and I really cant wait to see them playing and running around together too.

 

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The Me and Mine Project

What’s In My Make Up Bag

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Being a mummy to two young boys, its so difficult to even put make up on some mornings, but I am a person who cannot physically leave the house without putting anything on! I often find myself watching mummy vloggers, and reading blogs who do similar posts, and I love to see what people are using and grab different ideas, after all, its the one thing us mummys have for us!

First of all, I am terrible for a ‘skincare routine’. I don’t have one, and never have. I am extremely lucky with my skin, I never get spots, and I know I will pay for my lack of it in the future, so please, if you have any tips or recommendations on skincare, please let me know!

Here is what I use!

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Diorskin Star Foundation in 022 – This is a fantastic foundation, but pricey! It has great coverage, and gives a dewy look, which I love! I’m really not keen on a matt look.

Estee Lauder Double Wear Concealer in Light – I’m a huge fan of concealers as I am quite dark under my eyes and cannot stand it! A lot of people also find me a strange because i actually put this on my lips before adding any colour as I feel it brings out the colour better, but is quite drying too!

Dior Eyeshadow PaletteEye Reviver– For my eyes I use the real techniques brush which I find really easy to apply with. I like to wear really neutral eyeshadows as i feel too much colour makes my eyes look really tiny! This palette is so lovely, and the gel liner is really defining, normally I use a pencil liner but since having this I’ve definitely preferred this look!

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Estee Lauder Eyeshadow – 08 Unriveled – This is a lovely neutral gold, it has a lovely shimmer to it and is perfect for using all over my eye. It would be lovely to blend to make a smokey eye look, but I just use it on its own.

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Bronze Goddess by Estee Lauder – 01 Light – I’ve never been a fan of using a powder to set my foundation as I feel it really dries out my skin, and makes me look really pale! I always use a bronzer over my foundation on my cheek bones, nose, forehead and chin. I love the glow this bronzer gives, it gives a light bronze rather than a real orange look which I really don’t like!

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Lancôme Blusher – Blush Subtil 021 – After applying my bronzer, I always define my cheek bones using a blush, I normally use Mac in Dainty, but have recently switched to this lovely one! Its a lovely pink with a slight shimmer, and adds just enough colour to define!

Lancôme Hypnose Mascara – Black – I have used this mascara for a long time, I’ve tried many others but have always come back to this one as it just cant be beaten! Its lovely to apply, and gives a real false look affect. It never clumps and separates my lashes perfectly! It’s definitely my top product to use! I cannot go anywhere without wearing it!

Mac Lipstick – Snob – This is such a popular lipstick. It’s a lovely pink, and stays on for hours! It’s lovely to reapply, and never dries my lips out. It’s a perfect colour for an everyday lipstick! I really don’t think you can beat Mac Lipsticks, they feel so lovely to wear.

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{The Ordinary Moments 16} #7 – The Toddler Silence

Life with a two year old and a 4 month old is far from calm most of the time, and it’s definitely far from quiet! Days are often filled with endless babbling, screaming, laughter, crying and general noise! Which in all honesty is the way I like it, I couldn’t imagine having a calm and quiet house, which brings me to my point of ‘Toddler Silence’.

Now we all know, it’s extremely rare in a household that involves a toddler to have silence, and if there is silence, this normally sends us into a bit of a panic, the unknown of what could be lurking in the next room with the silent toddler. Is he ok? What has he broken? What has he drawn on? Is the room even still standing? It just amazes me what a toddler can do in a few minutes of silence, I honestly believe they have some super powers with speed, it’s unreal!

So one morning this week, we were doing our usual wake up routine, Jack will get Finlay out of bed whilst I feed Jacob in our room, and then when I’m done we head downstairs to start our day. However on this day, just after I’d finished feeding Jacob I was met with a realisation that I hadn’t heard my toddler for a good few minutes, and so this must’ve meant that 1. (The unlikely) that he was just playing nicely, or 2. (The most definite) that he was up to something.

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Not only had my silent toddler managed to trash the nursery, he had managed to sneak out of my room with Jacobs formula and proceed to use it as an indoor sandpit!

Although there is no doubt that these times make you feel like the day is just going to be so bad that you might as well go back to bed, they are also precious, hilarious moments that you really never want to forget, because before I know it, he won’t be the silent mischievous toddler, he will be grown up, and I won’t have these little moments to hold onto.

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